Hello peeps, I did not fall off the face of the earth. It has been a long, very long month.
I am very glad it is finally over for now.
It was the anniversary of my daughters death and my Mother was in a coma for three weeks, so sick we thought we would lose her at any minute, my youngest daughter moved home for good (with her two babies) she left her significan't other, my Dad has been really sick with his heart , emotionally I am somewhat stable for
problems. I have been emotionally wiped out is all.
I didn't want to bring negativity to you all so I just stayed away from DS for awhile, waiting for it to pass.
I am finally feeling better emotionally, not crying every hour, feeling a littlr relief.
Physically I was okay, I had surgery done this morning on my arm, well my wrist. I had a cyst twisted up with four tendons causing severe pain and handicaping me to the extent of muscle damage from lack of use.
Using hind sight now I really think I should have stayed in touch with my DS friends that have helped me so much. I get so sad that I lose myself in my selfishness. I try not to be a burden to anyone. I don't like to put them through the sadness again just because I am so sad. They have gone through enough and I cannot let them see me as weak. That's probably the biggest thing, if they saw me cry everyday instead of every now and then, it would wipe them out. I saw how worried Tina and Hunter were this morning before I went into surgery, and it was a phone call, they were home, it was 6 am. Tina cried, Hunter made me promise twice I would be coming home.
It hurts my heart that they are so concerned.
Well, so much for catching up, I need some rest,my love goes out to you all, as always.
I am still around guys,
Love Jacqueline PLH
I do hpe everyone had a wonder Mother's Day.
I am very glad it is finally over for now.
It was the anniversary of my daughters death and my Mother was in a coma for three weeks, so sick we thought we would lose her at any minute, my youngest daughter moved home for good (with her two babies) she left her significan't other, my Dad has been really sick with his heart , emotionally I am somewhat stable for
problems. I have been emotionally wiped out is all.
I didn't want to bring negativity to you all so I just stayed away from DS for awhile, waiting for it to pass.
I am finally feeling better emotionally, not crying every hour, feeling a littlr relief.
Physically I was okay, I had surgery done this morning on my arm, well my wrist. I had a cyst twisted up with four tendons causing severe pain and handicaping me to the extent of muscle damage from lack of use.
Using hind sight now I really think I should have stayed in touch with my DS friends that have helped me so much. I get so sad that I lose myself in my selfishness. I try not to be a burden to anyone. I don't like to put them through the sadness again just because I am so sad. They have gone through enough and I cannot let them see me as weak. That's probably the biggest thing, if they saw me cry everyday instead of every now and then, it would wipe them out. I saw how worried Tina and Hunter were this morning before I went into surgery, and it was a phone call, they were home, it was 6 am. Tina cried, Hunter made me promise twice I would be coming home.
It hurts my heart that they are so concerned.
Well, so much for catching up, I need some rest,my love goes out to you all, as always.
I am still around guys,
Love Jacqueline PLH
I do hpe everyone had a wonder Mother's Day.
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