Day by day
As time goes by I am still lonely. It is 4yrs 7 months since Tommys passing.
He had given me so much when he was here, all the memories our dreams going it alone is so hard. My life has changed I am looking older than I should, I have aged and not gracefully as I would have if here were still here.
Not sure where the future lies I go it day by day, Injured on the job and so many changes I can't go back. I am not able to do my job as I once did so they say resign, I will be taking early retirement and It's a hard thing for me after 24 years.
This site has given me blessings of good friends and and has been my saving grace.
I ask that my friends pray for me and a good outcome to my retirement I will be leaving NY as I can not live off my pension here. Ny as become a rich mans state and as far as state workers go the govenor has demonized us for doing what we do. Closing the prisons The rumor is level three offenders will be put in my place of work. I am not corrections nor am I a probation officer, what is he thinking. Yes times are tough but what is he thinking putting these kinds of people in our population?! They should be in the prison system and changing that will put so many people in jeapardy.
I want a simple life to move forward to feel again. Missing my honest true Love of my life someone to express myself to. Thomas and I knew what each would say before we said it we knew what each was thinking, he was my Gods Gift and I miss him. Loneliness has my heart so heavy the changes to my life hasn't made me smile I want to smile again.
He had given me so much when he was here, all the memories our dreams going it alone is so hard. My life has changed I am looking older than I should, I have aged and not gracefully as I would have if here were still here.
Not sure where the future lies I go it day by day, Injured on the job and so many changes I can't go back. I am not able to do my job as I once did so they say resign, I will be taking early retirement and It's a hard thing for me after 24 years.
This site has given me blessings of good friends and and has been my saving grace.
I ask that my friends pray for me and a good outcome to my retirement I will be leaving NY as I can not live off my pension here. Ny as become a rich mans state and as far as state workers go the govenor has demonized us for doing what we do. Closing the prisons The rumor is level three offenders will be put in my place of work. I am not corrections nor am I a probation officer, what is he thinking. Yes times are tough but what is he thinking putting these kinds of people in our population?! They should be in the prison system and changing that will put so many people in jeapardy.
I want a simple life to move forward to feel again. Missing my honest true Love of my life someone to express myself to. Thomas and I knew what each would say before we said it we knew what each was thinking, he was my Gods Gift and I miss him. Loneliness has my heart so heavy the changes to my life hasn't made me smile I want to smile again.
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