Day 7

Better day today, I will admit, this morning I found myself reinstalling Skype. As I did this I kept telling myself how stupid this was. I entered my username and password, Skype loaded, and there was the person I've been chatting with. I stared at it for a bit, my fingers wanting to type hi. I didn't. I signed out, uninstalled Skype.
I thought to myself after, why? Why could I do this today? Why could I not have done this long before? And more importantly...how long can I keep this going??
I will admit, I have a feeling of being lost today. I feel lonely, depressed, and as I tell my wife, blah.
Even after taking lunch to my wife, I wasn't cheered up. I've spent the last hour and a half reading posts on here. It has helped my mood some. I think about all of you out there that are posting and how I'm thankful that on the other side of that post is a real human with real feelings sharing their life story or giving advice.
I'm going to keep trying to think positive thoughts, keep myself busy for the rest of the day, and hope for an even better tomorrow.