today

It has been one week since I fully committed to myself to end this madness. I do not think I consciously realized the frequency of my exaggerations. Over the last 4 months Ihave been striving to end any lies. I have done fairly well. But I did stumble. It was done without really thinking about it. This is what frightens me. The obvious lack of control that I thought existed within me. So I am taking a different tack. The importance of getting this right is so huge. I cannot stumble again. I will kee[ my efforts in the light so I am conscious considering all behaviors I am displaying. I have also decided to see if a 12 step program will help. Step one says I have no control and a power higher than I can help. I have asked my angels to graciously step iin to help me loose what I no longer need in my life. I mean this to the core of my being. One week down an d a life time to go.