Sadness

My soul mate has me at arms distance. I understand the parameters but it makes me sad non-the-less. There are always consequences to our actions. A boundary has been put up. It feels like punishment. I hate myself for messing up my life. I know I will move forward and the future is ultimately bright but the shame I feel now is hard. Working to love myself again. hoping that the work I do is fruitful and brings down the barrier. One day at a time and today I have made my choice as I did yesterday.