Day 4
This is day 4 without having my reassurance for the stroke fear first thing in the morning. And once again i woke up with a headache, and i also feel like im looking through a tunnel again just like i did yesterday. I also can't concentrate, just like i couldnt yesterday. My vision is screwy and jumpy and i still have spots in it just like i did every single day for months on end now.
I had my therapy appointment yesterday, and we talked about sending the letter that i wrote to my aunt. She said to think about it for the rest of this week and then figure out if i want to send it or not. She said that i have to be ready for the consequences and i am not sure if i am yet. I am afraid that when my sister finds out that i told my aunt, or anyone for that matter shes going to go nuts on me and try to hurt me. She scares me, she really does. I want my aunt to know about what she did to me, but i am not sure that i can tell her or even send the letter for fear of my sister hurting me or something.
On a positive note i made 4 dollars and 25 cents so far for the writing articles job i have online!! I wrote an article today and i am hoping that it gets approved! I need the money!
I had my therapy appointment yesterday, and we talked about sending the letter that i wrote to my aunt. She said to think about it for the rest of this week and then figure out if i want to send it or not. She said that i have to be ready for the consequences and i am not sure if i am yet. I am afraid that when my sister finds out that i told my aunt, or anyone for that matter shes going to go nuts on me and try to hurt me. She scares me, she really does. I want my aunt to know about what she did to me, but i am not sure that i can tell her or even send the letter for fear of my sister hurting me or something.
On a positive note i made 4 dollars and 25 cents so far for the writing articles job i have online!! I wrote an article today and i am hoping that it gets approved! I need the money!
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Awesome, YOUR DOING GREAT a lot of positive things goin on because youve been willing to try. Nope u havent asked me for reassurance and you seem to be accepting the symptoms as just that; symptoms of anxiety. I give you a lot of credit for goin to therapy and being honest with your therapist. I will pray you make the right decision as to sending that letter. You are grown up now and your sis cant hurt you. You are an adult and have a voice the therapist, the law etc will protect you there are even womens safe houses you can get shelter or just counseling. You are not alone. I know your scared but your strong. Wow i couldnt make a penny writing articles on line i wouldnt even know where to begin so see another positive, your doin better everyday just be patient with yourself. Rome wasnt built in a day. Healing doesnt happen over night but i will happen God bless and Good luck with the article writing job. hugs :)
Thank you. You\'re such a good friend for putting up with my OCD.