Sad :(
Tonight was terrible for me. My sister made a big scene that she didn't feel good and went to the ER.
Well, before that happened my mom actually cared about her not feeling well.. She went and got her something to drink/eat and talked to her
But when i am sick she never does that.
When i don't feel good and im having a panic attack or something she just tells me to sit down or go lay down or something. She doesn't sit there and actually try to calm me down. It's always been this way. Even when i was a child. She always put my sister before me, always. When i didn't feel good as a child she would tell me to go back and lay down, but when my sister didn't feel good she would baby her and do things for her, like get her water and food and stuff like that.
So tonight was a huge trigger for me. and it sucked seeing my mom baby my sister like she always had when we were kids. It hurt a lot. And i started yelling and she wasnt listening to me at all.. She was more concerned with my sister like she always is.
I am so depressed tonight because of this. I cant stop thinking about it. I just want to cry. I cant stand it anymore. It hurts so much to see her baby my sister and i get nothing when im sick and don't feel good...
I hope i made sense. I'm just really spacey tonight.
Well, before that happened my mom actually cared about her not feeling well.. She went and got her something to drink/eat and talked to her
But when i am sick she never does that.
When i don't feel good and im having a panic attack or something she just tells me to sit down or go lay down or something. She doesn't sit there and actually try to calm me down. It's always been this way. Even when i was a child. She always put my sister before me, always. When i didn't feel good as a child she would tell me to go back and lay down, but when my sister didn't feel good she would baby her and do things for her, like get her water and food and stuff like that.
So tonight was a huge trigger for me. and it sucked seeing my mom baby my sister like she always had when we were kids. It hurt a lot. And i started yelling and she wasnt listening to me at all.. She was more concerned with my sister like she always is.
I am so depressed tonight because of this. I cant stop thinking about it. I just want to cry. I cant stand it anymore. It hurts so much to see her baby my sister and i get nothing when im sick and don't feel good...
I hope i made sense. I'm just really spacey tonight.
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I\'m really sorry you\'re hurting. Some people are just toxic and it sounds like your sister, and maybe your Mom are like that. It isn\'t your fault or a reflection of you or on you its them just them. A lot of people are selfish and stupid but that doesn\'t make your pain any less but you should keep that in mind. You are a worthy person, and quite a lot of people aren\'t.
Thank you.
so sorry sorry your feeling so bad, and you know i bet your mother doesnt even know shes doing it, all you can do is believe what im saying to you, you are a good, kind, wonderful person, and i for one would be devastated to loose you as a friend, what does that tell you sweetheart, god bless
I understand. My sister always got the attention. Everyone knew I would always make it. I am alot older now and I finally said it sucks being the one who can always makes it. No one ever calls just to say hello, how are you. It worked for awhile. But habits are hard to break. Its not you.......