Depressed :(

I feel so depressed tonight. I feel like no one cares about me. I feel like im dying and i hate this feeling even though i really want to die. I feel like a loser who doesnt deserve friends and thats why I dont have any.

My mind feels really tired and heavy and i dont know how much more of this i can take. I have been trying. I have been going to therapy. I have been trying to do things that make me happy but lately it has just been so hard.

I have a hard time dealing with anything. I have a hard time concentrating on anything even MCR lately. Ive been having a hard time remember things, even the little things. I cant stand this anymore. My mind is never clear and every time i clear it something comes up to make it cluttered again. I cant stand the way i feel.

Im so depressed and i wish this would just stop and i would be all better, but life doesnt work that way. I wish it would but it doesnt. I feel like killing myself. I feel like ending all this pain and suffering. I wish it would all just stop and leave me alone. My past haunts me, everything about it gets to me. I dont know what to do anymore to get enough from it all. I wish i was dead.

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I\'m really sorry you\'re suffering so much. Did your sister really say that to you? Tell her to go to hell. Tell her I said to go to hell. I\'d say a lot worse but I don\'t want to be kicked off here. It sounds like shes a waste of space and not worth your time. All I can say is do the therapy, take your meds if you take them and try to fight it one day at a time. Thats where I am now. My ocd has been horrible I\'m fighting bad scrupulosity at the moment. Its a religious obsession and I\'m not in a traditional religion so its hard to get advice. Hang in there!
Dave
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deleted_user

I\'m f*n depressed as sh*t too, and want to die. Everything around me, everything I touch, see, hear, pisses me off and I hate the world. I want to die too.