Dead.

I see myself dead.I never had anything i ever wanted,Not even a smile or a hug,I never had anything i wanted,Not even a nice talk with a friend,All i ever wanted was for someone to care,someone to love me,and not judge me,but in the end all i got was thisnever ending pain,Im just so sick of going ontrying for nothing,I just want it to end,everything.I feel so worthless,like no one cares,so sad, so lonely, so scared,of not having that one thingi have always wanted.Its nothing you can buy with money,not an iPod, not a movie ticket,not a plane ticket to mass,but just to have love and happiness,how much is that to ask,i wouldnt think it was that much,but for me its eternity.The eternity thats going to keep,lasting for ever and ever,and no one seems to notice or care,the kind that makes you want to cry,and die,and scream,and go insane.im so sick ofpanic,depression,Its always dark in my world,something, helps, music.besides that, my world,is full of darkness and despair.wish someone would notice,or even care.DO i really want to end it all?Tonight, tomorrow, or in a week,one of these days im going to snap.That will be the end of me,Bang. Bang.