My heart feels heavy...I'm feeling completely hopeless right now. I met up with some friends earlier, which helped distract me from obsessing about my husband. One of my friends is a musician, so we got involved in some tunes...I would like to start writing poetry/lyrics again. Something seems so therapeutic about opening up and baring ones soul. I enjoyed my evening ,until I come home to an empty dark house, then the sadness sets in. I know that I'll be okay, but this waiting until the other shoe drops is killing me. Time for me to take action and move forward.