hello people.
só 17 days have passed and 1've been trying and succeeding(I'm actually proud) and haven't sent him anything. a message, anything. why haven't he contacted me yetT he really us forgetting about meT but I don't want him to..
I don't want to feellike he can tell me when we get back together and when he changes his mind... I've always fixed things
whenever we fought.. And lately it was just over the top... Him telling me to get back together after a surprise I've made him and the very next day him telling me that he prefers if we don't.
I Just feel... useless.. My friends say that I'm better than him that if he can't see my value it's his problem and that 1 made it easy for him to be full of himself.
why am I sad thenT why do I Just want him to talk to meT 1 know it's wrong but I would get back to his arms in a minute. where is my self confidence? and it just shrinks even more because he's the one that treated me this way and I still want him to want me back! it disgusts me.
well.. Holding up has been difficult.. 1 can't concentrate in the important matters I should aHend. But it's just that 1 feel worthless and I have have given all that power to one person but I did. If I'm not special to him.. The one I've showed my true colors.. How can anyone love meT