I believe this is a dreaded day for most of us.
I just feel sad... last year we didn't spend it together because he prefered to go to his town and spend it with his family... I understood it..
This year we don't spend it together because we are not together.
I think that he could have been more romantic and be more thoughtful whe it comes to our relationship, and normaly I would blame it in his age or the fact that I was his first girlfriend. He was my first boyfriend to... so I need to quit making him excuses for not treating me right.
I miss him though.. I miss our funny moments and how he used to hug me and kiss me and whisper the most beautiful things, but I don't miss the not feeling important.. even though he used to say I was.. I believe that we need to trust our feelings, and I didn't feel that way. I'm just expecting a text from him.. I know it won't come but... I'm really wishing on it. I hope Ill be proven wrong.. but well.
See? He moved on in his head already and I'm here making wishes.. thinking I'm more to him than I actually am.. Thinking I am the woman of his life, like he used to say.. but the truth is .. If I was that person to him.. he would call me or text me or appear... and where is he? ... I can't see him here... because he is not here.
I just feel sad... last year we didn't spend it together because he prefered to go to his town and spend it with his family... I understood it..
This year we don't spend it together because we are not together.
I think that he could have been more romantic and be more thoughtful whe it comes to our relationship, and normaly I would blame it in his age or the fact that I was his first girlfriend. He was my first boyfriend to... so I need to quit making him excuses for not treating me right.
I miss him though.. I miss our funny moments and how he used to hug me and kiss me and whisper the most beautiful things, but I don't miss the not feeling important.. even though he used to say I was.. I believe that we need to trust our feelings, and I didn't feel that way. I'm just expecting a text from him.. I know it won't come but... I'm really wishing on it. I hope Ill be proven wrong.. but well.
See? He moved on in his head already and I'm here making wishes.. thinking I'm more to him than I actually am.. Thinking I am the woman of his life, like he used to say.. but the truth is .. If I was that person to him.. he would call me or text me or appear... and where is he? ... I can't see him here... because he is not here.
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Sibly, I am so sorry you\'re hurting today. I am hurting, too. I feel a lot of the same feelings you do, \"wishing and hoping he\'d change.\" That\'s our challenge as WWL2M: we have to learn that this type of fantasizing - not seeing a relationship for what it is - is what is causing us the pain.
We are human for missing the good aspects of our exes. DOn\'t beat yourself up (Pot calling the Kettle Black.) :)
Sending you love and strength on Valentine\'s Day~
It is a basic day isn\'t it? I hoped he would say anything to me..but he didn\'t... a friend told me he must have someone else already... that hurts me.. makes me feel like I wasn\'t that special as he used to tell me I was...
if I was that special he would be here..