Hello...
I'm feeling like an addict being put in abstinence... I just miss him.. his beard, his weird laugh.. he used to have this really loud laugh that always made me laugh.
I miss being with him,his warmth.. his kisses, the way he said my name.
I've seen him yesterday and he looked fine, very focused, that's how it should be.. so why can't i abstract myself from the way i miss him and focus in my important things? why do i have to keep feeling bad, missing him, wanting him next to me.I feel like an idiot.
maybe it meant more to me?no? maybe he's just more focused?
the truth is that he is moving on.And I should do the same... but it hurts me.. to think that we no longer are... or will be...it hurts.