Tired
Im tired... tired of always seeing this disgusting fat huge blob in the mirror and i hate feeling trapped, in this body that i hate... i wanna love myself and not think i need to look a certain way of weigh a certain weight in order to deserve my own love.... I AM NOT A F@#%ing number im a person and im tired of hating myself and having no self confidence and despising myself.... im tired of hating myself.. i need help and i wanna start liking myself and even one day see a beautiful girl in the mirror looking back at me and not a fat monster....
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What I would say is this, at 19 you\'ve got so much time to get help, I\'m 25 and only starting now to get help, and it really does make a difference. You need to speak to someone professional, doesn\'t have to be family if you don\'t want that, but a doctor or a therapist. As pointless as it seems now, having someone help you look at the same thing from a new perspective can make all the difference. I struggled with an ed for 6 years until I opened up to a therapist and got really honest with her and myself. I hope it\'s helps.