Today is a lonely day and I can't help but think I made a big mistake by leaving. I read everybody elses story and they are far worse then mine ever was. Sure he would be cruel with his words but we had our good times too. I could never go back because we lost everything we had together because of me leaving..the house is gone...he no longer has his job...I completely messed up his life to find my happiness but now I am still not happy. I spend a lot of time crying and wishing I hadn't left....either way I made the decision so now I have to accept the life I have right now even though today I am hating it..:(
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So sorry that you are feeling so low today. I wish there was something I could say that would take the pain away but there just aren\'t the words. We all go through it whether we are the ones that left or not. You have to remember that he has some ownership in this situation as well. I\'m sure you didn\'t make him lose his job. Try to focus on the good things in life and this melancholy will pass, I promise. Take care! Beth
I went through the same feelings. I questioned myself and blamed myself for everything that went wrong. You need to know that you cannot control everything that goes on around you, nor can you control what happens to him. He may tell you it\'s all your fault, but that\'s not true. You should look at how far you\'ve come and know that it\'s just the beginning. You will have better days ahead. You are a strong woman to have come as far as you have and you can\'t let anyone take that away from you. Put yourself first and just keep doing what is best for you. hugs, Debbie
sounds like my sotry...Argh! Life\'s a bitch, then ya die:(