Not feeling very good about myself today.  I am about to walk away from the life I have known for 25+ years.  I was up all night sick to my stomach and I can't stop crying. My heart is breaking all over again. It's one thing to talk about it but it is a completely different thing to actually do it.  I know in my heart I am doing the right thing for both of us but it hurts so badly knowing I am the cause of his pain and turning his life upside down for my own happiness.  I don't know how I will walk out the door of my home tonight and into a new life. I am so scared and so sad. This is the hardest thing I ever had to do.  I hope someday that not only H can forgive me but also my family and God. I vowed to love him and to be by his side til death do us part and now I am walking away...I am so very sorry...