My mom...

I just read a note that one of my sister's had posted on Facebook about my mom and it brought tears to my eyes...it's sad that we never really tell people how we truly feel about them even though we love them so dearly..we just assume they already know...my mom doesn't have a computer...she will never get to read those beautiful words that my sister wrote. I lost my Dad suddenly in October 2000.  I never got the chance to tell him how much I loved him..how much he truly meant to me...how he touched my life so greatly..to this day I have trouble even to speak his name...it tears me apart.  I still can't believe he is gone.  It hurts as much today as it did the night he had to go and leave us all behind.  Even though he is gone I feel him with me every day.  When I need a hug I feel his arms around me, holding me tight. I know he guides me through life. I know he is always here with me. This weekend I am going to sit down and write my mom a letter. I don't get to see her as much as I would like to because we live a distance from each other, though not real far, far enough that I only get to see her on long weekends and holidays.  Since my phone has been disconnected I can't even talk to her. I am going to pour my heart out to her..tell her how much I love her, how she has touched my life and how blessed I am to have her as my mom!! Life passes us by and we seldom take the time to tell others how we truly feel...sometimes it hard to say those things in person..but I want her to know how much she means to me...I want her to hear those things. I don't want to assume she already knows it...I want her to know...I don't want to wait until it is too late... I love my mom...she is my world!! xx