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I have been needing to start writing... Not sure I will do a lot on here but should start somewhere....
i have aver had many different things happen in y life that have changed me.... Parents divorce, dogbite to my face as a teenager, one of my special needs preschool students going through and diving from cancer...
All of these have shaped who i am today and i still think about each every day.
now this :( I need to keep remembering that this is terrible but is something that will change me and make me a better person. I learning that it is ok to take time for me and ok to take time to be sad. I usually always put everyone and everything before me.... And this has made me think of me more and my needs.
Sorry these are random pieced together thoughts...
I am grateful for my husband who has been so very supportive. I am learning it can be difficult as a strong woman to be open to others supporting me but I have been letting that happen more with my friends and coworkers. I am blessed with people in my life who care for me and will support me however I need that to happen :)
i am am trying to stay positive about conceiving again and soon.... I just have a feeling that I. At never carry a baby myself and that makes me very sad and nervous .... I am trying to calm and not stress. Looking into yoga more and meditation we will see.
Thank you to anyone who reads... and so very sorry for tour loss and that is what brought us together on this site. Wishing everyone positive thoughts and strength.
xo
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i have aver had many different things happen in y life that have changed me.... Parents divorce, dogbite to my face as a teenager, one of my special needs preschool students going through and diving from cancer...
All of these have shaped who i am today and i still think about each every day.
now this :( I need to keep remembering that this is terrible but is something that will change me and make me a better person. I learning that it is ok to take time for me and ok to take time to be sad. I usually always put everyone and everything before me.... And this has made me think of me more and my needs.
Sorry these are random pieced together thoughts...
I am grateful for my husband who has been so very supportive. I am learning it can be difficult as a strong woman to be open to others supporting me but I have been letting that happen more with my friends and coworkers. I am blessed with people in my life who care for me and will support me however I need that to happen :)
i am am trying to stay positive about conceiving again and soon.... I just have a feeling that I. At never carry a baby myself and that makes me very sad and nervous .... I am trying to calm and not stress. Looking into yoga more and meditation we will see.
Thank you to anyone who reads... and so very sorry for tour loss and that is what brought us together on this site. Wishing everyone positive thoughts and strength.
xo
s
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Hi Hon,
I\'m sorry you\'re having a tough time now. It\'s hard to go through these times. I relate to what you are saying about the things that change your life (I got chicken pox as a 24 year old - naturally the only scars are on my face). This does change us deeply -- but as time goes on, you\'ll find yourself surprised at how little has changed too. Our worlds have been turned upside down, but there will be days when it\'s all like a dream -- like you can\'t believe that this actually happened to you.
I worry that I\'ll never be able to carry a baby to viability too. But I know those are just fears. I don\'t know your health situation, but don\'t give up and try not to focus on the fears. Take those positive steps like the yoga - we can go together :-) and the personal time. For a long time after losing my Hope, I couldn\'t stand being alone. The only times I was alone were in the shower and the car and I invariably cried in both. Those are still my crying places. But these days, I feel like I need carve out some alone time, sometimes to cry, sometimes just to be. Time when I don\'t need to be anything to anyone. So I hope you can take what you need, whether that\'s support and a hand to hold, or just time to yourself. Cry, scream, break things, or sing...do what you need to do.
Big hugs!!!
Mary
Thank you Mary :) your support has meant a lot. I would love to meet up for yoga sometime... Let\'s chat about that :).
Yes, in the car and in the toilet are still my crying places too. Until now, I am still wondering/ figuring out what I have done wrong.
But, let\'s think positive. Just take your own time to be alone. Do a little bit of yoga and jogging also listening to music. Take care.
Astrid