7 months brads death on 12/22/09.

Tuesday it willb e 7 months that I lost Brad.Brad was all that I had and in the end we were not getting along.When he starts drinking,.he is unbearable and he knew it.I thin k that Brad wanted to die and he wanted to kill himself.No matter what I did,brought or said...I was always wrong.He would yelll at me about the slightest thing and i was in a prison.I would leave the house at 6 o clock because I would go to starbucks and he would be sleeping.Brad would be up all night on his computer and go to bed 6 or 7.Then he would sleep unil 11 o clock and complain to me he was tired.Look,I met Brad at a low time of my life.I was 48 and my mother was absolutely horrible to me.My mother was jealous of me and she knew it.She started her bullshit when I turned 21 and started to work.I had a job,I had money and friends and I could buy the things that she couldnt.She was always screaming at me about the house and frankly (to me) a house is just a house.It will be 3 years that I will be in Feb and i am glad that I have a place to stay.If Brad was living..I would be homeless and probably relocated back to the city of New York.As for my best friend,she and i have got different tastes.We have got nothing in common and I cant stand dumb people.Dont give me the excuse you cant write me or call me.Are you tellin g me that you cant afford 41.cents? Give me a break! Dont talk to me about computers.Not every family in King County has a computer and neither does have the country.Only 4% of the population have computers and that was in USA TOday.I like being alone.I can buy the things that I want.I can say the things that I want and do what I want.I wanted to sing all of my life and i have gotten nothing but jealousy and fights and oppostion to my dreams.Now this is enough.I am going to sing again at karoke in January 2010.There is only one karoke that is near my house and I dont like to come home late in the winte time.I hate snow and i hate winter.i hate the cold.I love the summer and daylight savings time.So do me a favor...please do not feel sorry for me.If you are so concerned..why not give me a check for 50.00 so I can buy food and cat food? Why not buy me a bag of cat food? Why buy me a gift card? These are some thing s you can do to help me.Talking doesnt.