Finally feeling better! yesterday was scary but by the grace of God and some wonderful people on here, I am still clean! I am feeling so much more stable and happy. I haven't gotten that close to relapse in a long time, but it tells me i just have to do more work on my serenity and mette (kind mind and loving kindness to my self). Thank you for everything. Sending love into the universe and all the souls in it. Namaste