Today

is the first day, I have felt somewhat normal in a few weeks.I start treatment this week, I am trying to make progress so I can get back to my old self, whatever that is. I don't think I have felt normal in a looong time.I am worried about starting meds, and and becoming too medicated, or emotionless. I just want a happy medium, if such a thing exists. For the longest I have been swallowed by a big black hole. And no matter how hard I try to dig out, it just gets worse and worse.I have no support here where I live, my family is out west.  I am going to work the next few months to make some positive changes, for me and for my children so they can have their mother back