I am keeping up with posting. My methods are working to remind me and doing a much better job. So this well help prevent from relapsing and slacking. I realized the importance of family and how much I could destroy and the families I can ruin if I go back to being dishonest. Today my wife aunt went unconcious and life is short she is missing me and I am work. I could only imagine if she had to go through allcthis by herself she been through a lot and I think she rather have someone to keep her safe and be there for her. She saw something in me and its my job to make sure she didnt make the wrong choice. I am that kind caring person she fell in love with and the one who well bebthere till end of time.