Today its a new year and things need to be different for myself and my marriage. I have new goals I have set out for new years resolution. First and for most is honesty I need to continue being honest and always tell the truth no matter what circumstance no excuses. The other is I want to better myself, be a better husband, and father. I have work hard make sure I stay active on forums read and learn as much possible. Listening others device who been through what I am going through and how they overcame their demons is the only way I can rid of this dark cloud that is surrounding me and damaging my integrity and marriage.