I'm doing a bit better but just trying really hated to stay on top I really wish I can continue to be honest and active here on forums. I feel guilty and depressed when I miss posting. It is going to be difficult for my wife I know she been working around the clock with her business and I come off being careless and irresponsible. We have vacation coming up it be shame if I screw that up for her by being stupid and forgetting to do my part so I can prevent falling back to old habits.