Had a good yesterday, just trying to stay positive and still feel pretty terrible for missing my goals I had set out I was really hoping to stay current and active but went a week without posting. I also been thinking quit a bit about school was looking at some of my old college stuff and reading current research trends in biochemistry which sparked pain again. I really hope I can go back and finish school. Hotel business is good money but it is very boring and a lot of work with pressure trying to make sure to keeping occupancy up and the revenue. As apposed to working in lab doing research or something. So I'll need to assess where I am at o from there what's retired and what not. I thin that will help with motivation, the self mediation program, and keeping the lying out of my life.