another day....
Just another day things are up and down like a roller coaster and still stumped about life. Seriously I feel like I need a dam Ph.D in life so fully understand living normal. I am trying my best but I feel it just is not good enough. Well have to do slot more than just being here on forum even though lying is not a issue and I can control it but other things need to be fixed that I use to lie about. I can run a hotel and do organic chemistry but lack common sense and how to live. My wife is hanging in there but there some instances where she reminds me a loving husband would do this and that without being told. I need my brain formatted and a new improved operating system installed. Anyone out there doing research in that I would sign up for a study subject.
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Ah yes, I remember those statements \"a loving Fiance would do certain things for me without being told\"! Needless to say now a day\'s, I don\'t miss her saying that or things like that at all. And as far as getting some sort of Ph.D or even just being rewarded somehow for what we go through, that would be nice. And as far as re-formatting our minds and installing new operating systems, I\'m with you on that one. I know the whole new operating system is nothing more than an impossible pipe dream, but in a certain way for me, since my breakup, I\'ve been doing my best to remove certain key memories and aspects of my previous relationship, and I guess using this time to not installing a new operating system in my head, but rather I\'m just trying my best to update the operating system that I already have. Also in regards to my honesty, I\'ve learned through this difficult breakup that it\'s better to be 100% honest with myself, my feelings and to the people who I choose to talk to about it. For I did notice that at times when discussing the breakup I wasn\'t being totally honest with myself and or others by not admitting and or hiding certain aspects of the situation. So rather than hide and or lie about parts of the situation, I\'ve come to realize that honesty is the best policy as towards talking it out, it makes the healing process go a little bit more smoothly and quickly. But just hang in there, I think your doing fine!