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I haven't been on here in awhile.  I've been trying to get myself together.  I think about him all the time and I miss him so much.  I have stopped taking the anti-depressants.  The first set was not working too well for me and then the new ones I just feel like I can do this without them.  I have been praying more and leaning on my friends.  My sis-in-law whom used to be my best friend has really stepped up.  The people I was/am friends with don't talk to them as much as I used to, but her we talk everyday via text and facebook. It's amazing how things make a change for the better.  I still miss my love, I still cry just not like before.  And I am still sad I know others have told me that I am not the same and you can see the sadness in my face.  I try to keep a smile on my face but hey I lost my heart and soul so this is to be expected.  No matter how much i try to cover up the pain is still here.