my heart hurts because of distance and time   i feel he'll never "truly" love me  i feel that my love for him and his for me is the poisonous lust we mask as callin it love  but do we truly know if love it true and real  alas i know nothin  so i cry tears of black  tears of pain that you love  you love me so as i love you or is it lust? and still i have many pullin at my heart  *sigh* why must i edure this pain ...?