Almost there.

Well tomorrow is a huge milestone for me. !2 weeks. Yahooooo. I also have my Nuchal translucency screening tomorrow so i am very very scared and nervouse that they will find somthing wrong. I think that is why i have not been able to bond with this baby or enjoy this pregnancy. The worry and anxiety I have over somthing being worng is so over whelming at times. I hope and pray that the doctor will tell me the baby looks great and is perfect and then i will be abl eto relax and bond with the baby. I feel horrible. All i have wanted for so long was to get pregnant and now that I finally am I cant enjoy it and live in constant fear. I just dont know what i will do if somthing is wrong with teh baby. I cant make it but i have to put my faith i God that the baby will be perfect and healthy. I am on pins and needles. I already called my high risk doctor to make sure we get pictures tomorrow. Please keep us in your prayres. I have no one totalk to about these things. My husband is way to optimistic for me. He is always saying everything is fine and well nothing has ever been fine my whole life when it comes to preganacy and babies and I wish he would just understand that. I am scared and dont need to hear him say not to worry I wish he woudl be more understanding to what I have gone through. Nothing pisses me off more than when he acts like we have nothing to be worried about. Hello pregnancy #4 with no baby. We have a ton of things to worry about.