Hi

So i am going in first thing tomorrow morning for a urine pregnancy test at the doctors. I know it will be negative because im not even one day late. But before they do a blood test they have to do a urine test. i wil be on cd 26 and 12dpo. SO i think its to soon to tell on a normal urine test. But they will do a blood test and i will know by friday. I have to get this done because i have a MRI scheduled for Monday and i dont want to do anything to jeperdize the baby if i am prego. I am not still so sure i am prego anymore. I dont know why but i just dont feel so positive. But that will be ok. I have had some major realizations lately and i know feel like i understand God's plan and im totally ok now with everything. I have realized that if We were able to get pregnant right after the Misscarriage we would never ever have considered adoption. It was never somthing we talked about until the battle with IF came and has decided to stay. We had to take this path to ;ead us to adoption which will lead us to the child God has picked out for us. As feel as certian that God has picked out a special child for us as if he would have put  one in my tummy to carry and give birth too. This was the path and this was God's planthe whole time. I finally have peace. and i have beenwith out it for so so long. I really belive that God will still allow me to get preganant agian and finally go full term and that we will still have a biological child but i feel just as strong that God wants us to adopt a child and give themthat love we have so much of. SO regardless of the results friday i will be ok. We are still trying to get pregnant and im still going to take fertility drugs as long as I can but we also start our adoption classes next week so we are moving forward with God's plan and I feel like as long as we let him lead us we will be ok. I have had to give it over to him and say here you worry about it. Im cant anymore. Im done. And it is a huge weight of my shoulders.