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So after my last journal I thought i was just going through a funk. Justhaving an off day. But nope im still down in the dumps and depressed. Im not even excited about our adoption orentation Tuesday. I just god honeslt am numb to everything. I get no joy from life work or anything. The upside i dont get any more pain either. Im just numb. I feel like a robot. I didnt even relalize until today i am like 6 day into the 2ww. I know im not pregnant because couldnt get a surge on my OPK. I know i missed it because ovulation is not my problem but then i dont think we bedded right. Who knows. Life suck im so sick of it. I have been trying to find a support group to go to in person but cant find one.
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I know exactly what you are feeling. I felt a couple months ago that I was living groundhogs day over and over! I actually have a few things that may help you through this, but i have to leave right now. I will try and post it by the end of the night. I will be praying for you today and all week and for as long as you need it. No one can tell anyone that they will have a baby from their own womb but all of this is worthless if we don\'t have hope. So while you go through this terrible time right now, I will hope for you! Take care!
i am so sorry you are having such a hard time, maybe talking to a prof. if you cant find a group. ya know you are in mourning, even though in the future you may become preg. for now, moving onto adoption is almost like leaving a chapter in your life..... i have a lot of friends, that say the hurt melts away when they are handed that perfect little baby.... good luck to you....
I am also numb so I do understand what you are going through. I am open to adoption however my husband is not. I know that my local hospital offers support groups for this kind of stuff. Maybe look into that. Also if you have a counseling center near you they also sometimes offer specific support groups. And you know you could always try to start one. I think infertility is alot more common then some of us think, it is just not discussed openly in public. Online it is easier to express our true feelings because all of us are not face to face we are all known as screen names. I would love to have someone who lives close to me that would be a good support. Who knows adoption could be such a blessing to you guys. The way I look at it is if God intends for us to have kids it will happen just not in the way that we think it should.
Hang in there Hon!! Things look glim right now but they will get better, they have too!!! I think finding a support group other than the internet (although we a re a pretty good group of people) would be a wonderful idea. Try to have a relaxing weekend. You deserve it!!!