Sad

So after my last journal I thought i was just going through a funk. Justhaving an off day. But nope im still down in the dumps and depressed. Im not even excited about our adoption orentation Tuesday. I just god honeslt am numb to everything. I get no joy from life work or anything. The upside i dont get any more pain either. Im just numb. I feel like a robot. I didnt even relalize until today i am like 6 day into the 2ww. I know im not pregnant because couldnt get a surge on my OPK. I know i missed it because ovulation is not my problem but then i dont think we bedded right. Who knows. Life suck im so sick of it. I have been trying to find a support group to go to in person but cant find one.