Anxiety
Ugh so the anxiety is killing me. I am so worried all the time. I have another scan on Tuesday. I feel like there is no point worrying, what will be will be. Every time I catch myself daydreaming about the future, I scold myself-I am just so worried I am going to jinx it. Everything has been so rocky up til now. Here's hoping there is some smooth sailing ahead.
On a positive note, I have been feeling really sick and have huge food aversions at the moment. I am taking that to be a positive sign. I so hope the scan on Tuesday confirms good things...oh and my beta came back at 26,000. SO it has more than doubled in the 48 hours since the last blood test. So once again, another good thing.
Geez, now I am just pissing myself off...why am I being so bloody pathetic and paranoid?! I really need a good kick up the rear and to stop worrying so much.
Sorry if I am pissing anyone else off with my stupid entries at the moment. I solemnly swear to be better!
On a positive note, I have been feeling really sick and have huge food aversions at the moment. I am taking that to be a positive sign. I so hope the scan on Tuesday confirms good things...oh and my beta came back at 26,000. SO it has more than doubled in the 48 hours since the last blood test. So once again, another good thing.
Geez, now I am just pissing myself off...why am I being so bloody pathetic and paranoid?! I really need a good kick up the rear and to stop worrying so much.
Sorry if I am pissing anyone else off with my stupid entries at the moment. I solemnly swear to be better!
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