I made it!
I made it through today! What an achievement! I am exhausted.
I don't even want to write about what a trying day it was-the upside, was that I actually did speak to the person who was giving me huge amounts of stress. Whilst I am not sure that everything is resolved, I feel like we both made steps towards actually being on speaking terms again. I took responsibility for my own actions and reactions and all I can hope for is some civility between us from now on. Whilst it hurts to realise that we won't ever be the friends we were beforehand, I guess a colleague that I am on good terms with is better than a hostile tension between us.
On to the good things for today:
1. I am grateful for finally plucking up the courage to speak out and try and mend the bridges that have been burnt as a direct result (I believe) of the whole infertility experience.
2. I am grateful for friends in unexpected places- another work colleague emailed me today to check in on how I was doing (she doesn't know about the IF issues) and also asked if we could be gym buddies....awesome!
3. I am grateful for our beautiful garden-I walked around it today and took in the beuty and productivity in it. My husband does alot of work in it and I appreciate his efforts in making our home a beautiful place.
ok thats me done-it is 830pm and I am going to crash out and go to bed.
Daily blood tests started today-so for the next 7 days I am a pin cushion. Todays results are pretty good-not convinced that I am on par with a normal persons' cycle but here's hoping that my ovaries come to the party and produce the goods in about 4 days' time.
Over and out.
I don't even want to write about what a trying day it was-the upside, was that I actually did speak to the person who was giving me huge amounts of stress. Whilst I am not sure that everything is resolved, I feel like we both made steps towards actually being on speaking terms again. I took responsibility for my own actions and reactions and all I can hope for is some civility between us from now on. Whilst it hurts to realise that we won't ever be the friends we were beforehand, I guess a colleague that I am on good terms with is better than a hostile tension between us.
On to the good things for today:
1. I am grateful for finally plucking up the courage to speak out and try and mend the bridges that have been burnt as a direct result (I believe) of the whole infertility experience.
2. I am grateful for friends in unexpected places- another work colleague emailed me today to check in on how I was doing (she doesn't know about the IF issues) and also asked if we could be gym buddies....awesome!
3. I am grateful for our beautiful garden-I walked around it today and took in the beuty and productivity in it. My husband does alot of work in it and I appreciate his efforts in making our home a beautiful place.
ok thats me done-it is 830pm and I am going to crash out and go to bed.
Daily blood tests started today-so for the next 7 days I am a pin cushion. Todays results are pretty good-not convinced that I am on par with a normal persons' cycle but here's hoping that my ovaries come to the party and produce the goods in about 4 days' time.
Over and out.
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I\'m so happy to hear you talked with her and sort of worked stuff out. It should make work with her much easier! Also, congrats on getting through the day!
Good luck with the daily BW! I had that while coasting after stims and it was no fun. I hope your arms heal quick and don\'t hurt!