Why

Why do I always seem to have to do everything the hard way? Just when I think things are finally going my way I get shit on. I'm 59 can't do anything like I used to be able to. In a marriage that sucks. Living in an area way away from my family and good friends. They say you can't go home again. Is that true. If so then why do I even get up in the morning? I've been working so hard to try and get back home and every time I think things are finally going good in that direction I get shit on and everything falls apart.