Another day. Still working on surveys. Making a couple of bucks here and there. Not getting anywhere fast. Need to research other ways to try and make some money. Everyday I feel so bad about not bringing in any money except my SSD check. That does make the house payment but we need more. Feeling guilty about not being able to give my wife the things she would like to have. She doesn't ask for much. Just a completed kitchen and a bathroom that doesn't have tile grout that keeps needing cleaned all the time.  We live so bare bones. Just wish I could go out a get a regular job again. We could get out of this living with only what we absolutely need to live life. Trying to decide if we should buy buns or just use bread because we really do not need buns. Is very humbleing and I am so tired of living this way. I keep thinking how much easier life would be if Debbie had the money from my life insurance. How much easier life would be for her if she didn't have all the stress that I bring into her life. Well can't do much about that until something happens with my health. Just have to keep trying. Glad I found this site. Nice to be able to at least try and help people and be able to vent and have someone that know how I feel.