not a good day.

OK.  I'm having a hard day with the hubs EA. He blatantly ignored my texts this morning, so I just get this feeling of,  if it was her I bet he'd have already answered.  I'm so frustrated.  It's not like I haven't forgiven him,  but letting go,  or forgetting is not easily done. I want to strangle him.  And it makes me second guess myself,  and him.  Would be have answered it if it was her texting?  The thought of him picking up the phone song that is me and then shoving it back in his pocket with a "fu$! Her" in mind is all that runs through my head.  
I'm just not handling it well.