i need help with god =/ i have no idea what he's trying 2 do 2 me. >_< it's like he gives me something joyous && when im finally crawling out from beneath all the boulders && shit of my life another comes crashing down on my back && breaks it once again. =[ im gaining && loosing so much at the same time what the hell am i suppose 2 do && more importantly what am i suppose 2 make of it??? he takes alott of the happiness away from me && leaves confusion in it's place. is he trying 2 teach me a lesson in life or making me stronger???