Sometimes I just can't believe this has happened. I feel so fortunate that it isn't a worse situation. I always think of what others like Patrick Swayze must be trying to cope with and my problems seem smaller under the microscope. There definitely is a lesson here- still trying to figure it out. I always think about how you learn from bad experiences but I was never the type of person to take life for granted, I always tried to do the right thing. Why do things like this have to happen?