November 12, 2006 Well today is the day One-Year Anniversary smoke-cigarette-free.  I never thought I would get through the day.  I never thought I could do it.  I wanted it so bad but I never thought I could stay stopped.  Not having a cigarette can be terrifying.  As I write I am listening to Peter Jennings' wife on the radio -  she is talking about her book about her husband who died of Lung Cancer - he picked up again on 911 after many-many years of being smoke-free.  Is this my higher-power telling me somthin - on this day  - at this moment - he was a Canadian/Swede - my heritage - is it coincidence?  Interesting - Ok good for me.Now I am retired and  need to get healthy - lose weight.  I gained 50 lbs in one year.  I was thinking of having a surgerical medical intervention - I would need a guarantee and there are none.  It still is an inside job for me.  And I love spagetti - my carb of choice.  I remember hearing once - that an alcoholic can put the cap on the bottle -  smokers are not born with a cigarette in there mouth -  People still need to eat - thus - The Wisdom to Know the Difference. Well for today - I got on the scale and I did not smoke.  I am very grateful for what I have.Ree