TGIF - Left the office early today - to see Mom - she is very funny talking about men, she totally is in love with men, it's part of the dementia and she is so cute, her white curly hair, I took her for a perm last week and her big baby-blue eyes, too bad they look so vacant, she is still here, she has an infection in her ankle bone, they will be keeping her in the hospital until tuesday and then off to rehab. Intellectually, I know she is ok and it-is-what-it-is but feelings are not right or wrong I am emotionally bummed out.
Went the the hairdresser - they were busy - so I will go tomorrow - I am trying to cope and to take care of myself as best as I can - gee these are the times I wish I was married "well maybe not" - I do have supportive friends - but I wish sometimes I could share or just put my head on a strong shoulder. Well enough of the lonely girl in NYC routine.
OH, and as for the cigarettes, I thought a lot about them today, about the ritual of smoking after leaving the hospital - but the reality is - I had more time -the visit went better because I was not a slave to the evil white cylinder today, I did not have to smoke, I chose not to.
I appreciate all the support I receive here at DS - the writing and venting really is helping me - I think wow I will write about that this evening and share with my cyber-friends - I can't keep kvetching to my non-cyber-friends.
Just Thanks for all the help, tips and for being as beautiful as you all are - Your all coming from such pure places.
Peace Bothers & Sisters
and
I did not smoke today.
Ree
Went the the hairdresser - they were busy - so I will go tomorrow - I am trying to cope and to take care of myself as best as I can - gee these are the times I wish I was married "well maybe not" - I do have supportive friends - but I wish sometimes I could share or just put my head on a strong shoulder. Well enough of the lonely girl in NYC routine.
OH, and as for the cigarettes, I thought a lot about them today, about the ritual of smoking after leaving the hospital - but the reality is - I had more time -the visit went better because I was not a slave to the evil white cylinder today, I did not have to smoke, I chose not to.
I appreciate all the support I receive here at DS - the writing and venting really is helping me - I think wow I will write about that this evening and share with my cyber-friends - I can't keep kvetching to my non-cyber-friends.
Just Thanks for all the help, tips and for being as beautiful as you all are - Your all coming from such pure places.
Peace Bothers & Sisters
and
I did not smoke today.
Ree
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Thanks for sharing all you do Ree. It is so sad to watch our loved ones slip away and I send you my heart. You are staying so strong through this and if ever there would be a reason to smoke you have them BUT you chose a higher path. GOOD for YOU! Thank you for everything my poster child! BE WELL.
You are one heckuva woman reenee. An inspiration to us all. Thanks for being here. And hey - kvetch on, any time you need to. Don\'t feel you need to be polite - let it all hang out when you need to! It\'s healing!