Ok today was nervous breakdown time - i had a full blown crying jag in the office today. It did not stop for one hour. I have been having some problems with my boss - needless to say - today she got me good - and I cried and cried and cried - I am so embarassed and feel stupid - but it was like diareah - it just would not stop tears all over the place and in my kind of business this is not acceptable especially if your a women with a women boss - it is considered emotional blackmail in business- she demanded to know why I was crying and I made up somelame answer - they do not know I have stoped smokings cause they did not know I started again. Anyway tomorrow is another day - I realistically know this will blow over but feelings are not right or wrong - Tonight when I read Desiderata in JoAnn's journal all the hairs stood up on my arms - need I say more - I am in the right place come what may. Thanks to all of you 0 - I did not smoke today - just had a nervous breakdown OY-VEY