Tuesday, November 21, 2006 - Today was so very hard - I still feel like a space cadet - my mind is dah and I am very edgy - but - all the years of program have been coming back to me - I have been a member of OA a 12-step program for many years - food unlike booze - drugs - or cigs - has to be taken - sooo it-is-what-it-is. Today - a power higher than me is keeping me going - and just for today I did not smoke.