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Sorry I deleted the first Journal I didn't think it was for this group but decided to re post it.
I really don't know where to begin I have been feeling so hurt and lonely for so long. I never really grieved for my Angel son my, BF then husband now never liked to talk about it never let me cry never hugged me and tell me everything will be ok, nothing. I am missing Danny's loving caring ways he was there for me no matter what he was my rock. The boys Dad left me for a younger richer woman ( my sisters husbands sister, her sister-in-law) it has been a nightmare for the past 21 years for me. Danny and I were married 22 years together 25 when he left me in 1993. My husband now is an Alcoholic also addicted to pain meds and Marijuana. I know this is a site for those that have lost a loved one, I did not want to call a crisis center I do not want to talk to anyone right now I just want to craw in a hole and die. The ONLY thing that has kept me alive is my son Scott and my Granddaughter. Since my son has NO time for me even when I beg him to please come over. I now am only here cuz of my Granddaughter but she is young only 3 she will forget about me in a few years. My Grandson (my Angel son's boy is Danny III) we all have not been allowed to see him, I have seen him 3 times in 12 years and that was Nov. 5th 2013 April 29th 2014 his 12th birthday first birthday I was allowed to attend and then he came to his only cousins my Granddaughters 3rd birthday party May 29th 2014. And not again since we don't know where he lives to send cards she won't give us a phone number so we can call and say hi. The only communication is message through his moms Facebook but I write every week and never get a reply. But he did on June 26th leave me a Happy Birthday message on my Facebook.Someone asked me why we are not allowed to see my Grandson (my Angel sons boy) it is a very long involved story but it involves my ex (the boys Dad) and his ex wife she is trying to get revenge on him for divorcing her so she has manipulated my Grandsons Mom (Jessica) into believing lies and buying Jessica what ever she wants therefor she believes the lies and loves the gifts.
I really don't know where to begin I have been feeling so hurt and lonely for so long. I never really grieved for my Angel son my, BF then husband now never liked to talk about it never let me cry never hugged me and tell me everything will be ok, nothing. I am missing Danny's loving caring ways he was there for me no matter what he was my rock. The boys Dad left me for a younger richer woman ( my sisters husbands sister, her sister-in-law) it has been a nightmare for the past 21 years for me. Danny and I were married 22 years together 25 when he left me in 1993. My husband now is an Alcoholic also addicted to pain meds and Marijuana. I know this is a site for those that have lost a loved one, I did not want to call a crisis center I do not want to talk to anyone right now I just want to craw in a hole and die. The ONLY thing that has kept me alive is my son Scott and my Granddaughter. Since my son has NO time for me even when I beg him to please come over. I now am only here cuz of my Granddaughter but she is young only 3 she will forget about me in a few years. My Grandson (my Angel son's boy is Danny III) we all have not been allowed to see him, I have seen him 3 times in 12 years and that was Nov. 5th 2013 April 29th 2014 his 12th birthday first birthday I was allowed to attend and then he came to his only cousins my Granddaughters 3rd birthday party May 29th 2014. And not again since we don't know where he lives to send cards she won't give us a phone number so we can call and say hi. The only communication is message through his moms Facebook but I write every week and never get a reply. But he did on June 26th leave me a Happy Birthday message on my Facebook.Someone asked me why we are not allowed to see my Grandson (my Angel sons boy) it is a very long involved story but it involves my ex (the boys Dad) and his ex wife she is trying to get revenge on him for divorcing her so she has manipulated my Grandsons Mom (Jessica) into believing lies and buying Jessica what ever she wants therefor she believes the lies and loves the gifts.
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I\'m so very sorry for all you\'re dealing with my friend. People can be cruel....
ANYTHING you want/need to share is \"for this group\"! It\'s ALL part of the healing process. Please feel free to share whatever is on your mind, on your heart.
I\'m glad your grandson reached out to you through a FB message! At least that shows he DOES care and does know how to get in touch with you. I have a feeling the relationship may change for the better as he continues to grow up (not sure how old he is). Truth always has a way of surfacing. He will one day see the truth if he doesn\'t now.
Sad that money and lies can manipulate some people into hurting others. Far too many humans value the wrong things. I\'m sorry.
I hope that by sharing you have found a bit of relief and release. I always feel better after sharing what\'s truly in my heart.....good, bad, or otherwise.
Please take care of YOU!!
Much love and many prayers~~Teri
I am so glad you decided to repost!
How sad that people deliberately set out to hurt others. And keeping a grandchild away is downright cruel. How cool that he remembered your birthday! Perhaps you can communicate via FB.
My granddaughter is 18. I am lucky that her dad has never tried to keep her away from us. When she got in to her mid teens, she was less anxious to spend time with us. But she has become more communicative by texting and calling.
So hang in my friend. Scott and your granddaughter need you. And we are hear for you to listen.
Love and hugs,
Marlene
(((((HUGS)))))
Much love coming your way...people make strange and selfish decisions.
It is hard to understand why.
Gentle care my friend,
AnnM
Hoping that some vibes of healing can help you as I am sending them for you. Peace
Thank you everyone for your kind words of encouragement! I want to clarify about how i connect with my Grandson thru his moms FB messaging not sure if he is alowed to read them or even see them. I have saved every post though so he will hopefully see them one day.
Thank you for sharing a tiny piece of you and Danny. My son Jason - angel date January 25, 2013, has one child Olivia. Jason\'s wife took the 18 month old baby and left Jason in 2007 while he was at work. As time went on it became very evident that she has several issues with prescription meds, pain killers etc. She has multiple behavioral issues, some she is dealing with, some no. In 2012 the local RCMP removed Olivia from her home and placed the 6 year old with Jason and I. When social services returned Liv to her mom, her mom decided that it was all my fault that Liv was removed. While Jason was alive that was just ignored because Jason did have Liv every second weekend (although it was a fight everytime) but Liv was here and often. Since Jason\'s death, no one in his family (myself and his sister) have not been allowed to see Liv. Several attempts have been made and the mother just ignores them. Recently we heard through the grapevine that they moved. I too am hoping that when Liv is old enough she will look for us. We are making it real easy to her to find us.
I know some of what you are going through. This group of Moms is amazing for listening, sharing and being there. Come back often, read our journals and share your story.
Sorry you have a reason to belong to this group, but so glad you found us.
tight hugs,
Merrilee
You are feeling into healing and it is the hardest work of a lifetime my friend.
Just know that you are surrounded in loving support here and if ever there were a group of women with hearts with ears this is IT!
Not understanding ever why grandchildren are kept away from their grandparents as it takes a village to raise these amazing children.
With you and caring~
XO Joanie
I am so sorry for all the pain you are going thru. Like several of the Moms said this is an amazing place. We can share our feelings and feel like no one will judge us. I am also so glad that you found us. Sorry for your loss.
Nell
I am sorry for your loss. I am glad you found our group, FMO. We can all come here and bare our souls, with nobody passing judgement on us, no matter what we say.
You have a lot \"on your plate\", so be very kind to yourself and try to keep stress at a minimum...
(((HUGS)))...Julia