Tired...

Sorry in advance to anyone who writes a journal or needs some support.  I am depressed severely and tired of fighting with myself just to get out of bed.  I am taking a break and just going to let myself be in bed. Day 5 no hot water and 1-2 months before we can come up with the money to replace the hot water heater - FYI: Do not by any whirlpool water heaters, mine is 7 months old and wont stay lit and they company doesnt honor the warranty. In the last week my A/C went out and I used all the funds I had for this whole month to fix it.  The my water heater went out before the A/C was even fixed (no hot showers, nothing) and now my coffee pot wont work.  Along with all the work I did on my yard to reset a pond, the pump and light stopped working.  I have just had enough.  I am tired of being awake to think about how much it all sucks.  I am tired of crap happening to me. I have a friend who has enough money to help me out, but just wont.  My family could all come together to get my a water heater and if each of them put in $75 I would have one.  I have been through hell and back and through it all again.  Everything has gone down hill since my sons death.  I am alone other than my husband that I see a few hours a day and my one friend that I see once every few weeks.  At this point I dont even want to be around anyone anyway.  The hell with it all. I am thinking of turning off my phones and the internet.  Why even bother having it.  I get online and am bored as hell here too.  When I am in pain, this is the only place I can go and even get a response.  I am tired, warn out, and just plain sick of the bull!