So tonight subject for my brain is me great this could be a long night..... got it all going around and around In my head  a personality disorder think it's harder to except than bi polar or manic depssive i mean i was expecting them but personality disorder that means it's me it's always been me and it's the bits that are ment to make people love and care it basically feels like there saying u need to change who you are so the treatment plan I'm coming off the meds completely :-( apparently I don' need them Ii mean no I haven't tryed to od with my kids in the living room for like 3 years now but I have been mediated and have still come quite close but my husband sees it and interviens and I never stay home along unwell I also don't get out of bed on a bad night I lay awake in bed to stop myself ácting out and now I'm going to have a new baby and no medication I'm sooooo fucking scared right now so that's the meds the treatment is one year therapy 3 days a week one day group one day one to one and telephone therapy if anyone knows what this is please message me lol  oh and a new baby and two boys already just feel like there saying there is not much wrong ur just a bad person on the inside :-(