Great news

Pregnant again! I hardly know what to think. It feels so much less real than last time. It's been a year since I lost my first baby--that's a whole year of heartbreak and feeling like there's something wrong with my body and worrying over whether I'm able to have children at all. I'm so happy, but also sad for the one I never saw. I'm in a weird place. I want to share the news, but I also know how hard it was for me hearing other people's good news and not knowing if I would ever have that joy. I don't want to make anyone's journey harder than it already is, or to cause anyone pain. I also don't know if I will feel a connection to those happy, chirpy mothers who have never experienced a loss. I just know there are so many other women out there who have gone through a similar time. Thank you to everyone who has messaged me or supported me during this last year.

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thewaitinggame
thewaitinggame

Hooray!!! When people like you and I announce pregnancies, I think confetti should magically rain down from the sky! ;)
And you\'re right: we will never be able to commune entirely with those blissful mothers who\'ve never undergone hardship. But that\'s ok. I\'m happy to be me! Embrace it all: the good, the bad, and the ugly. It makes us who we are.

Sooooooooo happy for you!
katemo
katemo

Congratulations- that is great news!
I totally feel what you are feeling that it is just not the same as such happy mothers who have never experienced a loss.
I was terrified also to spread the news of my pregnancy after loss.