For the first time sense your passing I had a major brake down at work. We had a code and I was managing the airway. The code was long and diffiuclt with the patient very hard to hand ventilate. In my eyes I suddenly saw a person instead of a patient. For the frist time in my career I saw a gentle old man who had a life. My patient had once seen the world through young eyes, experienced his first love and his first broken heart. My patient was a first time father, grandfather, and great grandfather. My patient was a human being whos life was in the transtion between worldly and heavenly in front of my eyes. Suddnely the gray blue eyes of an old man became the sea green eyes of the man that I loved the man that I had recently lost, the man I called my soul mate.
My friends and colleages understood, directed me to a quite place, and held me to their hearts. I took a deep breath, wiped my eyes and went back to my job. My patient died, the room became quite, and I heared you say, "I got him."
I love you
Me