Have been on  vacation for the last seventeen days and enjoyed every minute of it.  I went to the timber festival with Sara for the forth of July.  I had fun.  Sonja flew up for five days so she could be my date for our little girls wedding.  We did so many things.  I took her to Edgefield  which is the first place you took me when I first came to Oregon. Good memories.  Sara came too and we had lunch and drank wine.  We also went to a painting class and then home to more wine and a fire and girl talk under the stars.  The next day we  went to Astoria and Cannon Beach.  Beautiful day.  I think the most fun was the driving range in the high dessert.  And yes we played around on the golf cart.  I am now the owner of a tumble weed that Sonja stuffed in my trunk for a reminder of our time to  together.  The wedding was beautiful with Brianna to spectacular for words.  He mom and brother walked her down the isle.  Tony Catherine and I stood up and gave her away together.  I could hear you whisper I do.  We all cried when Brii placed your flower on your picture.  Danner looked to heaven and smiled.  Your oldest and I are becoming close.  Your passing has had a profound effect on us all.  I continue to grow into the women I know you would be proud of.   I miss you and still have moments of intense grief.  At the same time I am going on with my head held high and my heart filled with you.  I love you so much and will continue to live for both of us.  
I love you. 
Me