Tomorrow I am meeting Brianna for dinner and then we are going to pick out shoes for the wedding. Can you believe the wedding is less than a month away? I am so grateful you were so proactive in planning the big day. I know that Brianna cherishes the fact that you were with us when we picked out the dress. She looked beautiful didn’t she? She is beautiful. Saturday I am helping Sara with her garage sale. I donated a lot of your clothes and tools that you had several duplicates of. Sunday I am going out to dessert and coffee with Kim and then we are going to the play Lizzy Borden. Kim thinks it is a comedy. I didn’t have the heart to tell her otherwise.
I am doing fairly well. Let me change that to good. It still feels like there is a huge cloud over my head and that I sometimes just go through the motions of doing normal things. Other days I feel like I have been reborn just as you have. I know you are with me. I feel you so strongly at times it is almost if your sole is walking through me. God has been so gracious to me that I am truly humbled.
When you first passed all I could hope for was the first year to go by quickly. I now know that this journey of grief must move at normal speed. This path that I am taking must travel through birthdays, anniversaries and holidays. I need to prove to myself and to others that I can indeed get through the hard times and come to think of life’s memories as more than bitter sweet but as glorious. They say that time on earth represents moments in heaven. You are the lucky one in that are time apart can be counted is seconds. I love you.
Me
I am doing fairly well. Let me change that to good. It still feels like there is a huge cloud over my head and that I sometimes just go through the motions of doing normal things. Other days I feel like I have been reborn just as you have. I know you are with me. I feel you so strongly at times it is almost if your sole is walking through me. God has been so gracious to me that I am truly humbled.
When you first passed all I could hope for was the first year to go by quickly. I now know that this journey of grief must move at normal speed. This path that I am taking must travel through birthdays, anniversaries and holidays. I need to prove to myself and to others that I can indeed get through the hard times and come to think of life’s memories as more than bitter sweet but as glorious. They say that time on earth represents moments in heaven. You are the lucky one in that are time apart can be counted is seconds. I love you.
Me
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Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I enjoy reading your entries, because they are full of hope and positivity, something I am trying to find. You have tackled so many issues head on and I am convinced Michael is guiding you every step. I can\'t face opening Tracey\'s wardrobes yet, she has so many beautiful dresses and each one a memory. The thought of packing them away is one I dread but know one day I must confront. It\'s lime another closure, maybe I am still in a from of denial and sared to truly move on yet. Anyway, thank you for your words, they help enormously.
John
Your Tracy was a beautiful women and you two look very in love in your picture. I bet if you took the time to open her wardrobes and looked at her clothes you would feel her with you. Life will go on for you and it will be sweet and full of love again. You are a kind and dear man who now has a lovely angle looking after you.
Kymberly
I love reading your everything girl. You amaze me. I so wish you lived closer, but as I said love and friendship can bridge that gap.
I know we haven\'t been friends long, but I am so proud of you
Love,
Cindy